Okay I'm doing it. Now, I'm not stopping "blogging", that's what this site will be for. I originally made my xanga for poetry only, but I've come to realize that it's a hassle to post in two different things. I don't know. You know? So. Maybe I'll use this blog to put up random picture collages of different occasions or something, but as of now, if you want to get into my mind, you must CLICK HERE. It's been a good (over 2 years) here on blogger, but you know. Maybe you don't, but I do. I love you, faithful readers. Move on to the other link.

I love the word "hella." It's hella awesome.

Fabulous: Colorado, Young Life, serving God, serving kids, snowboarding, snow. Incredible: God's mysterious ways, Christmas Eve church service at Faithbridge. Fun: Christmas. Whoa: the way God has recently opened my eyes and shown me a whole lot about myself and Him all in one. The great thing? Since He lives in me, I can survive myself. More on that later I'm sure. Delightful: the new U2 CD, the new Mae CD, a thousand other CD's. Sad: grandma's funeral. Beautiful: the thought of heaven. My next post will make more sense I hope. I love you all, God bless.

I'm leaving today for Crooked Creek, a beautiful Young Life camp. I am blessed to be able and serve a camp that I went to my junior year. It's going to be really humbling and I ask for your prayers over the whole work crew team that's going, as well as the campers. May God be alive this week, not only in Colorado, but in your lives well!

Really, I'm too blessed to have the grace of some of my best friends. I want to be fully faithful to God so He will continue to be fully faithful to me, therefore allowing me to understand Him a little more. Only in our faithfulness will we begin to understand God, because our simple minds can't fathom His majesty. This is something that's been on my mind constantly: the understanding of our Lord, and the conclusion that we will never be able to do it. He can only reveal Himself, and we can see it and respond. I never want to stop seeing it. I never want to stop growing. I want to explode because the these thoughts are all too exciting. So, I'll move on and say this: Mute Math is a fantastic band, and I finally found their 7 song EP. It hasn't stopped playing since I bought it at 2 o'clock today. Well, it stopped playing when I turned my car off, but it greeted me when that engine started back up. The Element, Captain Jolly Roger, enjoys their delightful beats. Bow chicka wow wow.

My first semester of college is over! It was hot. Along with hot goes Oceans 12, go see it. It's good, it's GOOD. Home feels so nice, like a warm coat on a 61 degree day. I'm excited for this week of relaxation and finally seeing people who I haven't in entirely too long. God, bring it on, you majestic being you.

How is The Cure so bad ass?? Oh man.

This triceratops of glowing fun I received from Sonic in my Kid Pack. His name is Dino, it's that simple. Not only is he a glorious being of extinct animal, he's my good luck creature for finals. He is in my bag at all times and on the desks where I study. You should go to Sonic and get a glowing dino, they make for good friends.  

Stupid blogger won't let me get rid of that ridiculous search bar. See it, ruining my simple template. How dare you. Search this *raises fist in anger*. In other news, Max Richter is an incredible modern day composer that you should listen to.

I'm not completely satisfied with what I've done for this template yet, but it's getting there.

I messed up my template on accident. It'll be lookin' good again soon I hope. Until then, check out my photography website.

God has been so alive recently not only in my life, but in my closest friends lives as well. It's all so beautiful, really.

I'd forgotten how awesome cuddling is.

While walking on campus today with Allison, she stopped in excitement as she saw a $5 bill folder on the ground. She screamed with delight and picked it up. Immediately she opened it not to find a real dollar bill, but instead this printed on the side that was folder so nobody could see...Disappointed? Jesus won't let you down. Make Jesus Christ Lord of you life! It then goes on with a bunch of verses and at the end says, God provides us with things money can't buy. Pray to receive Jesus into your heart! Then there was a prayer you are supposed to say and automatically you are saved. I'm about to explode.

Are you kidding? Who did this? Do they really think that somebody is going to pick up this fake money, be pissed that it's not real, but automatically say, "Oh...YES! JESUS WILL PROVIDE IF I ACCEPT HIM!" This is ridiculous. What a stupid way to "share God". All this little tool does is piss people off. Do people not understand how exciting it would be for us poor college students to find cash lying around, then come to see that it's not even real money. What a let down. Maybe instead of leaving fake money around.

My anger about this goes far beyond the fact that we really didn't find $5. This puts off such a skewed view of Christianity to non - Christians. Have we come to the point where we don't know how to evangelize the right way, through love and kindess, that we must stick it on something that we are sure someone will pick up and get angry about? Whatever happened to spreading grace? Seriously.

Nobody is going to experience the power of Christ through picking up something like this. You have to feel and understand Him if you're going to accept him into your heart. If you don't truely want God as the Lord of your life, then fake money isn't going to encourage someone to do it. If they don't truely believe it then it woulnd't fit anyways. This prayer at the bottom of the bill ends by saying, "I thank you for the hope of heaven and my salvation. Amen." I don't think people hope for heaven unless they are truely in love with God, and you can't fall in love with Him if you've never experienced His greatness. You don't appreciate salvation unless you feel how empty you are without it. Christianity is not for everyone, people forget that. Not every person on earth is going to become a Christian, and with some of the ways Christians come across to them, why would they want to? What with televangelists screaming at people in the audience and making them pass out on stage, people telling others that they are going to hell if they don't confess their sins, people flaunting Jesus around like a brand name on their shirts, it all seems so out of place to me.

I want to be Christ like, not wear tee shirts that show the world I'm cool 'cause I like God. I want to share the gospel through my actions, not preach it wrong on the free speech area of campus, yelling at couples who walk by and are holding hands. I want to love God and love people. There's a huge difference in being religious and being spiritual, and I have a big problem with many organized religions. Somehow so many people have lost the point, they've lost the bigger picture. Why have so many Christians run away from the secular world and hidden themselves behind dollar bills and remained in their bubble with their HEAVENLY GEAR outfits and forgotten to spread the greatest thing God has ever shown us and ever let us be able to give to others: LOVE.

I drew (with stencils) and painted (with paint) this amazing Dino Love mug in Austin back on my birthday (thanks to Pam!) I like to bask in its glory for it is wonderous.